Cancer

Divided.

To say I’m disheartened by the results of our recent presidential election would be an understatement. I’m also angry, but trying really hard to figure out how to get people to care about each other. That really is the bottom line – A majority of people voted with only their own self-interest in their mind and hearts.

Your individual exceptionalism will be our destruction.

The United States of America is anything but United and I don’t understand, why the so called “right” has glommed onto this narcissistic racist misogynist felon as their second coming. And wish us all good luck getting rid of him and his ilk in 2028.

Here are some ways that your special president will make America “great” again:

Maternal mortality will increase. More than it already has since Roe v Wade was overturned.

Suicides of queer folks will increase.

Acts of overt racism against people of color will increase.

Sexual abuse, domestic abuse, and bullying committed by men will increase, especially by white cis men.

Climate change and erratic weather patterns will increase.

Immigrants will be interned and deported, which will break up American families.

Our daily stress watching the news and world events will increase.

This is not a complete list… Do you actually know how tariffs will affect your household expenditures? Because I’m pretty sure your guy doesn’t care.

But please, tell me again how the price of eggs made you not trust Joe Biden or Kamala Harris.

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Things I’ve been doing

It seems like my world expands and contracts each day. My focus is everywhere and nowhere!

I’ve been getting very active again in my Santa Monica Chorus. Teaching ear training each week and learning a $hit-ton of new music! If you know a little about Sweet Adeline’s and my barbershop life, you know that apart from chorus rehearsals every week, our regional organization gets together two or three times a year to sing and compete (and of course bond and party). This year my chorus is competing in October at the International competition in Kansas City and we’re excited and hopeful and perhaps positioned to make it to the top 10.

I’ll be going to Summer Sizzler (another event) in Oxnard next week and competing in a double quartet contest with a pickup group called 🌈KALEIDOSCOPE🌈. In our package we’ll search for and sing songs about Rainbows…

I guess that’s what I’m doing in my everyday life these days, searching for my rainbow. Not the pot of gold, although that wouldn’t hurt, but my hope and possibility after the rain… I’m exploring my new mind and body with each breath. I’m not sure exactly who I am anymore and the discovery process is intense and fraught, even though I’m super grateful to be alive and kicking and moving pianos around – something I thought I would never (and probably really shouldn’t) do again.

I am having a hard time getting back to writing and playing the piano, but I am doing a lot of art… Which is incredibly therapeutic and informative about my evolving state of being. Here are some pieces that I have made in the last few months.

Please, have patience and grace towards yourselves as we navigate the ups and downs in this life and these bodies… That’s what I’m trying to do for myself. πŸ©·β€οΈπŸ§‘πŸ’›πŸ’šπŸ©΅πŸ’™πŸ’œπŸ€ŽπŸ–€πŸ©ΆπŸ€ ~ Kate

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Scanxiety and Relief

A Rainbow and Black Chaotic Spiral with a center of yellow hopefulness.

I am cancer free! At least that’s what the last scans and checks tell me, that for now, I am cancer free.

2 weeks ago, I had a CT scan to check for any abnormalities in the areas where my cancer appeared last year. The week leading up to the scan was filled with trepidation and anxiousness. It seems almost crazy that just the act of getting checked brings up all of the nerves and fatalism that showed up when I did have cancer growing in my body. And the relief after getting clear results is something I can’t even describe… I will be constantly vigilant forever, or until the end of this life anyway.

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Love to All! ~ Kate

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