Musings

Divided.

To say I’m disheartened by the results of our recent presidential election would be an understatement. I’m also angry, but trying really hard to figure out how to get people to care about each other. That really is the bottom line – A majority of people voted with only their own self-interest in their mind and hearts.

Your individual exceptionalism will be our destruction.

The United States of America is anything but United and I don’t understand, why the so called “right” has glommed onto this narcissistic racist misogynist felon as their second coming. And wish us all good luck getting rid of him and his ilk in 2028.

Here are some ways that your special president will make America “great” again:

Maternal mortality will increase. More than it already has since Roe v Wade was overturned.

Suicides of queer folks will increase.

Acts of overt racism against people of color will increase.

Sexual abuse, domestic abuse, and bullying committed by men will increase, especially by white cis men.

Climate change and erratic weather patterns will increase.

Immigrants will be interned and deported, which will break up American families.

Our daily stress watching the news and world events will increase.

This is not a complete list… Do you actually know how tariffs will affect your household expenditures? Because I’m pretty sure your guy doesn’t care.

But please, tell me again how the price of eggs made you not trust Joe Biden or Kamala Harris.

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Covid and Family

Almost 3 weeks ago, I took a covid test and it was positive. I had been feeling tired and a little congested, but I thought it was just because I had been stressing about going to that chorus weekend and once I was there, I relaxed and had a great time. But woke up on Sunday feeling sketchy, so took a test when I got home… First timer. I haven’t had covid once until now – August 2024. I often refer to my cancer year as another period of time with pandemic rules… that, and we’ve been lucky. Thankfully it was just a couple of days of fever and tiredness. I had the mild version, but I still don’t recommend it.

So, covid virginity gone and isolating from my partner in a smallish apartment. When I told my mom, all she had to say was, “You’re still coming to Great Falls, right?” So, of course I had to go to Montana and help with the preparations for our Family Reunion and to spend time with my mom. The reunion attendees included my 3 brothers and 2 of our spouses, 7 nieces and nephews, and our matriarch – my lovely Mother.

One of my nephews was in charge of the schedule and he knocked it out of the park! We made lots of good meals and fancy drinks. We played games and played music together. We made each other laugh and had deep discussions. Relationships were re-enforced, healed, renewed, and newly begun. I hadn’t seen some of my nieces and nephews for more than a decade and it was so lovely to see them now, more adult than I remember and absolutely living great lives!

And as I listen to Christian editing the video in the other room and hear the sounds of my deceased father’s saxophone, I’m reminded of what a beautiful family I have. We genuinely like each other AND love each other, and that appreciation was an integral part of the whole weekend. I am truly grateful for my family.

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Things I’ve been doing

It seems like my world expands and contracts each day. My focus is everywhere and nowhere!

I’ve been getting very active again in my Santa Monica Chorus. Teaching ear training each week and learning a $hit-ton of new music! If you know a little about Sweet Adeline’s and my barbershop life, you know that apart from chorus rehearsals every week, our regional organization gets together two or three times a year to sing and compete (and of course bond and party). This year my chorus is competing in October at the International competition in Kansas City and we’re excited and hopeful and perhaps positioned to make it to the top 10.

I’ll be going to Summer Sizzler (another event) in Oxnard next week and competing in a double quartet contest with a pickup group called 🌈KALEIDOSCOPE🌈. In our package we’ll search for and sing songs about Rainbows…

I guess that’s what I’m doing in my everyday life these days, searching for my rainbow. Not the pot of gold, although that wouldn’t hurt, but my hope and possibility after the rain… I’m exploring my new mind and body with each breath. I’m not sure exactly who I am anymore and the discovery process is intense and fraught, even though I’m super grateful to be alive and kicking and moving pianos around – something I thought I would never (and probably really shouldn’t) do again.

I am having a hard time getting back to writing and playing the piano, but I am doing a lot of art… Which is incredibly therapeutic and informative about my evolving state of being. Here are some pieces that I have made in the last few months.

Please, have patience and grace towards yourselves as we navigate the ups and downs in this life and these bodies… That’s what I’m trying to do for myself. πŸ©·β€οΈπŸ§‘πŸ’›πŸ’šπŸ©΅πŸ’™πŸ’œπŸ€ŽπŸ–€πŸ©ΆπŸ€ ~ Kate

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